Broadway Bound

Last night B and I went to another show about 2 hours away from M's band. They were fantastic as usual. It was their last stop in my state and then they start finishing up the tour in a few days.

I just love those group of guys. I adore them. They are so fun to be around, nice, genuine, caring guys. I love my new friends!

I was sad to say goodbye to them all but I know that B and I are making our way to Miami, FL this summer to see them there (if they aren't on tour yet) and we'll see M at Christmas time with his new girlfriend! Can't wait!

We didn't get home last night until 3 AM! I was so tired I decided to take off the morning of work and sleep for a good 4 hours.

I'm feeling much better but I def. need more sleep.

The weekend should be fun. I'm going to an Apple Festival and possibly a Pumpkin Festival. I can't wait. Saturday night is girls night and I have off Monday!

I say a pretty good weekend so far.

Well talk to you all later.
Much love, Sarah

I was going to write this fun post about cupcakes but that will have to wait. I feel like I need to write to get my feelings out because right now I feel like a big old jumbled up mess.

B's best friend we'll call him M is in a band. And not any band. They are a HUGE band and not huge like they have a lot of members but HUGE like they are so popular. B and M talk almost every other day and have been friends since they were in elementary school. The band has never played in my state before (well they have but it wasn't the "same" band) so B and I made our way over to see them play (2 hours away) on Saturday night. The band is from Miami, FL and is on tour right now so that was pretty cool to see them play live. I've met M before and I talk to him with B sometimes so that was awesome watching him play. After the show we all got something to eat and I got to finally meet the rest of the guys and really get to know them. We talked for hours all about their careers, how they got started, how they write their music, each others backgrounds, etc. It was so uplifting. These guys work so hard for everything and barely get by right now. They are a seriously famous band in Miami and the rest of FL and pretty much the rest of the South. They talk all about how crazy it is down there and then up here in the northeast they are nothing right now. These guys are going to be HUGE next year as they are in talks to tour with Nickelback next summer. Things will change for them and I can testify that they are amazing talented and awesome. I'm so proud of them!

B and I were talking on the way home about them and how awesome it is that they are doing this. B really wants to find a job and to be "more grownup" but right now it's so hard. He wants to do something equally as amazing. To come back home from living far away and showing people things that he has done. I think that is why partially he wants to be in the Navy. (We still haven't heard anything.) He wants to show people with what he is a capable of and right now he just can't seem to get it going. I was thinking about my life too. I absolutely hate my job right now. I desperately want to leave but I don't have a degree. I want to get my marketing degree so I can travel and do promotions and marketing but I need my degree and right now I'm waiting to hear about funding for that. I feel like I'm just on this see-saw and I can't seem to catch a break.

Today was like a breaking point for me. My job absolutely blows! I am harassed by vendors all day long on the phone and now other agencies in my job just yell all the time at you when they don't even know who you are. I hate my job and I need to find a new one. Ideally my job would be doing event planning/marketing as my full time job. This can happen I just need my degree so I can get that job. My job that is in left field that is becoming more difficult is acting/singing. I would love to make that happen but I couldn't quit my full time job and live off of nothing b/c that's what actors get. It's so frustrating.

Today is just one of those days. One of those days that you look at other people's lives around you and think how they hell did that happen? Why can't my life be like that? I need a change to happen soon. I just need to make it happen. My favorite quote is reach for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars. I just need to remember this and aim high. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day full of enlightenment and wishes. I hope so because this bad mood is really making me more mad.

Till next time, Sarah

So I was thinking the other day that I haven't posted much on here about my weight loss efforts but I guess now is a good time more than ever to go into that I guess.

In 2005 I graduated high school and then moved onto to college. I went to a local college but I still gained the freshman 15 or more like 25 through my one and a half years of college. (I left college to tend to sick parents) When I was in school and transitioning into a full time job I was dating a boy named D (real name is not d). D was very skinny and could basically eat anything his little heart

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desired. He has just gotten out of the army and so he was in good shape but he was SKINNY. I mean like super skinny. Any who we would always hang out at his house and just watch TV. It was pretty boring and all we ate was Pizza Hut Personal Pan Pizzas w/ Pepperoni and Ranch Dip. Yeah sounds awesome doesn't it? No wonder I gained so much weight. Since we didn't move out of his house very often there was little exercise going on. I didn't burn off any of the weight because all I did was go to class, eat,drive over to the convenience store and get Pizza, drive over to D's house, eat the pizza, and watch TV. Yeah life was pretty boring. When I moved into my full time job I was so excited that there was so many fast food options around me that I ate pretty much fast food every single day at work. Gained some more weight. By the time I had gotten my full time job (2007)and was settling in, D and I had begun to fight and we broke up. After almost 2 years of dating I decided that I needed to do things my way and take care of myself. It took a while for me to take care of myself but I slowly but surly started working out after work and trying to eat more healthy. The weight didn't come off partly because I wasn't still eating right and I was losing my will to exercise.

Then in 2008 I decided that I needed to make a change. I made the resolution that I would lose the weight and be more healthy. So on April 1, 2008 I joined Weight Watchers. A decision that would make the most impact on my life and change my life forever. I started to lose weight and it felt really really good. I was becoming more confident and I was feeling better than ever. In July 2008 I met my now wonderful boyfriend. I met him a day after I had moved into my new apartment and started living on my own. I started losing weight, was active, had a new apartment, and had a wonderful new boyfriend. I now realize that joining Weight Watchers opened so many doors for me that for a long time I had seen closed. I didn't think I was going to be able to find anyone for a long time, I didn't think I would be as active for a while, and I didn't see myself moving out for awhile. Weight Watchers changed my perspective on life. I was able to live life and go out and do things.

The boyfriend is an exercise nut. Seriously he is and he pushes me so much to always do better and be the best I can be. Part of my love of "exercise" now is because of him. I love hiking now outdoors, I found a new love of swimming, I fell back in love with biking, etc. He is skinny w/ lots of muscles :) and can eat anything too but he is extremely healthy and actually likes moving around more than D did. I just have to remember that I do not look like the boyfriend and we do not have the same metabolism so therefore I should not eat all foods that he eats.

So far with Weight Watchers I have lose 42.4 lbs. That is some serious weight loss. I have done extremely well so far however these past few months have been extremely hard to lose the last 25 pounds. I have maintained my weight or have either gone up or down and then stayed the same weeks from then. Finally I'm starting to get back on the wagon and get down to serious business. I'm tracking everything I eat again and working out more than I usually do.(I usually work out 3 times a week, now I'm working out every single day) It's feeling really good and soon I'm hoping that I will be down to my goal weight. Hopefully soon I can announce that I'm down for good.

I know that it's a tough road and a road I don't always like but this changed my life and I don't ever want it to go away.

*just a little story to share with all of you*

I'm moving in less than a week now. No I'm not moving out of the state like I had hoped but I will be moving into a MUCH bigger apartment. I still yearning to move to maybe TN or somewhere but I think it might have to be put on hold for a year or two.

Right now I live in a studio apartment and while it has been nice and everything after a year in close quarters I'm ready to move on up to a BIGGER apartment. My new apartment has all the same things my old apartment had (A/C, dishwasher, oven/stove/fridge, the possibility of a washer/dryer hookup) but everything is full size. I'm so excited. Plus I actually will have a bedroom this time, a patio, and security.

I can not tell you how excited I am to be able to finally sleep in a bed after a year of sleeping on a futon, walk outside or open windows if I want to, finally feel safe in my apartment, and to finally have enough room for cooking/baking!!

I technically move July 3 all of my furniture, etc but on July 1st my cable and electric will be turned on. I have some things packed but I def. need to get a move on the rest of my packing!! I hate packing and it just seems so overwhelming! Fortunately by next Saturday, July 4th I will be in a new place setting things up for a splendid new apartment!

*The other plus....boyfriend might move in next year or earlier, rent would go down and so would expenses for just me! Plus it would be wonderful! :)

I know, I know, I KNOW that I haven't been on here in quite sometime. I blame that partially on my crazy insane life and partially because of work. You see at work for like a month I wasn't able to log on to Blogger. For some reasons the Internet gods did not want me to sign on. I could look at everyone else's blogs but not sign on to mine nor leave comments on blogs and believe me I wanted to comment! I love reading every one's blogs and I think its fun to comment on what they are writing. So in any sense I'm sorry that I haven't blogged in gosh knows how long.

So today here at work, they are updating the system. I can not access 3 Sites that I use say 98% of the time. There is literally nothing to do today and I'm super bored. I think I have looked at a million and one celebrity gossip sites, checked my sad bank account, checked balances on gift cards, paid bills online, looked up gifts for Christmas, etc. I have done almost about everything there is to do at work and I'm still super bored. *UGH*

Any who, today is Halloween. Happy Halloween everyone! Today marks 7 years since my grandmother has died and to tell you the truth I miss her. I wish she could see how well I'm doing and to meet my super amazing boyfriend but I'm sure she is looking down from heaven and approving. Anyways, moving on to another subject. The boyfriend and I will be seeing live bands play tonight and drinkkkking some and having a good time. I might be meeting up with a few friends later at their college but we'll see.

This weekend is literally going to be packed full. Tonight is the bands, tomorrow I am cleaning and donating more clothes (down 35 lbs since April :)), grocery shopping, then hanging out with friends tomorrow night. Possibly seeing Saw V and I'm quite excited to see my bestest friend in the whole wide world! :) Sunday is church and then rock climbing for a few hours. I'm pretty stoked about that but I'm am the worst rock climber. I am not very good, yet. Key word is yet. In between all the craziness of the weekend I would love to carve another pumpkin or see more Haunted Houses. We went last weekend and only saw two attractions. I want to go more and get scared more before the season is over which technically will be over tonight.

Speaking of colleges, Tuesday I went to a local college about an hour and half away and saw one of the Presidential Candidates. That was pretty cool. I was out in the cold for 2 1/2 hours but it was worth it. My hands hurt so bad and at one point I went with my friend to the bathroom and couldn't unzip my pants my hands hurt that bad! I know a little TMI but I want you all to grasp the coldness that I felt! I went with the boyfriend and met up with my friend and her boyfriend and we had a fabulous time. After the rally we went and got some drinks and they bought us food with their parent's money. :) I love college. Parents usually pay for everything. I never went to a on-site college, never spent the night and never was in a dorm until Tuesday. I went to a community college for a year and a half and then didn't know what I wanted to do so I left school to take care of both of my parents. They were both very sick at the time. Honestly, I had such a great experience. I really have been thinking about going back to school and getting some degree even an associates degree but I want to stay somewhere and live on campus and get away from living on my own. I want to just hang out at night with people and study and go to class all in the same area. I really really want to. In all reality tho I'm a bit old now to try to go to a college and live there. I'm in the adult classes now and I really have to study. I feel like I missed out on these amazing college experiences that so many other people tell me about and show me pictures of. I want that and feel a little jealous that I didn't get that. While other people and people I know are now partying and having fun I'm working full time, paying rent, paying bills, living on my own and working on an acting career. I grew up fast and not that I'm regretting any of it I just have a little bit of jealously that I wasn't the one partying my heart out not giving a crap. I should be thankful for the experiences that I have had and are having but right now I'm stuck on I want to live carelessly for a little while. I wouldn't even live carelessly for awhile if I went back to school. My parents were never going to pay for college in the first place so they wouldn't pay it now. I would have a million and one student loans and I would be freaking out about taking final exams and all that other crap. I need a degree though and I plan on getting one. I just need the plan to fall into my other plans and then I'll be happy.

Anyone got any suggestions on how I can have "college experiences" and still get a degree and pay my rent?

Happy Halloween all the lovely readers.

Till next time,

Sarah

So I have decided that I'm not going to write on here strictly about my acting jobs or whatever. I'm gonna write a on here at least once a week and just write because well I can and I want to. I could delete this blog and start another but to me that is just more work that I'm not ready to invest in just yet. LOL.

So any who, this is my first blog post that isn't all about acting. I'm not exactly sure what to write considering I'm kinda new to this all but well I hope you don't get too bored reading! :) What to talk about? Hmm....Sometimes we get that in our daily lives too. I'm sure some of you have dealt with that before. Whether it be on a elevator with a person you kind of know, a bad date, an uncomfortable situation, etc. Whatever it may be its the worst! I hate not finding something to talk about. I consider myself an fairly interesting person with a ton of stories to tell and I think I'm pretty outgoing. However, when you don't know the person really well or you don't really want to talk to them, your most interesting stories about how you overslept today and ran into the wall getting dressed (no lie that definitely happened to me today!) don't seem to cut it into conversation. They might look at you like you are a wierdo and then you're labeled the wierdo each time you seem them. LOL.
*On a side note: The boyfriend and I always have so much fun together and hes so romantic even if others don't always see it. I end up at the end of the day/night thinking I'm the luckiest girl to be with him. :)

Let me just state this right now in the open:
This is me simply stating my thoughts, ideas, opinions, and whatever else I want to write about. Sometimes my facts might not be all that right or stated in my blog but they are pretty close to right and I speak my mind freely of what I'm feeling. If you don't like them, then don't read. Don't bother putting down nasty comments or whatever. It's a waste of your time and mind.

On that note I would just like to state that yes Fantasia did have a tumor in her throat but she should have come out and said that once she really knew what was going on. A lot of people didn't know about it when she was missing show dates and what not. People are early to judge including me and it just doesn't look good when you don't show up. A rep. for her or someone should have come out and said it right away then waiting months to come out and say what was going on. It just would of cleared up some rumors and maybe the people's perception of her would have been different from the start. That's all I'm saying on the issue.

Moving on, lately I have been feeling like I'm stuck. I just feel like I'm not doing much work as an actress. I feel like I'm stuck here doing the same old thing day in and day out. In all reality I'm working my butt off with researching and going to auditions and singing and prepping myself. I feel like I'm working all the time but at the moment I have nothing to show for it. I know that it takes a lot of hard work and I'm doing that and to just wait for the right timing. I'm just feeling so down about it currently. Oh well, I just have to keep my hopes up high and know that something will come along when the timing is right.

Til next time....

Hey All! Sorry its been so long since I updated. I have been super busy so I haven't had much time for myself to be on the Internet. So last we left off you all were waiting anxiously to hear if I got any part in the Sound of Music audition. (Yeah I know you guys weren't on the edge of your seats or anything but well I would like to think that ;-))Well needless to say I opened my email on Friday and had an email that was rejection of the audition. Oh well. Not the first and certainly not the last one. I thought it was quite weird how they gave me a word document of telling me that they were thankful I tried out but the part was not for me. It was strange. Any who, I'm busy looking at other auditions coming up here soon and a ton of auditions most likely in October. October is when they start to cast for upcoming Christmas productions and I think that might be fun to do. It definitely will be hectic with holiday things and rehearsing but I think it might be fun. After all my life is full of chaos all the time why should the holidays be any different? LOL.

I heard that they were making my favorite Broadway musical into a movie, WICKED! I'm super excited. Beyond excited. So once I heard the news I decided to Google to see if they were doing open auditions for the lead characters or any character for that matter. To my surprise I believe they are going to have a reality show to find the next Elphie. I was okay cool I could handle that but then I found of they already started it. I'm not sure if this for the movie or just for a tour of the musical but I was still devastated that I had missed it. I keep Googling(if that is even a word?) every chance I get to see if they have announced any open auditions.

Also American Idol is coming somewhat close to my town on August 24-26. My boyfriend really wants me to try out but I'm not completely convinced. I mean to me my dream is to act, sing and dance and while you somewhat do that on Idol I kinda feel like I would be selling myself short. I mean yes some Idol contestants have gone on to do Broadway eventually but I want to do Broadway and only Broadway. Movies and TV would be great to. Ultimately those Idols who go onto to Broadway really just love the act of singing not involving Acting and Dancing. I love all three and if I just make myself known for one at this point in my career then I feel like I would be cutting myself short of amazing possibilities ahead. The former Idols well most of them don't take the beloved stage seriously (look at Fantasia Barrino who barely showed up the nights she was supposed to be on the stage.) I will admit though that is seems that Clay Aiken has done pretty well on Broadway and I just saw Tamyra Gray as Mimi in Rent. She was fantastic but I still thought she wasn't as ready as she could have been to play Mimi. Still I'm a little skeptical about auditioning for Idol. I don't know honestly what I'm going to do. I guess I'll let you guys know eventually. :)

I found a vocal coach in my hometown so I'm going to be working with him to get my vocals chords up to par. I need them strengthen badly. Even though I sing every single day for almost an hour and a half each day I still feel like I need work on them. I want to get my range to progress as well so I'm really looking forward to meeting with him and seeing all he can offer me. From what I have read in reviews about him he seems pretty good and has been teaching voice for something like 50 years. I also heard that he has a recording studio in his house so maybe just maybe I could get a demo CD in the making! :)

I also found a dance studio for adults in my area. They have a performance one and a non-performance one for adults and I think I'm going to do non-performance that way I can just educate myself more on dancing then actually perfecting something for a performance. After all if I'm in a musical or play there would be no way I would be able to rehearse for a dance recital too. That would be a little too much to take on. I mean I could do it but then I would have to maybe invest in a personal assistant to keep me on track or a blackberry. Both are in no way going to happen so I need to take on what I can handle on my own.

A lot of people forget that I have a full time job, do charities occasionally, look up for auditions, rehearse for auditions, practice, starting vocal class, starting dance lessons and I do all that why balancing a somewhat normal social life if you even want to qualify it as that. Oh and did I mention cleaning my apartment, grocery shopping, paying bills you know the daily living things?
Yes my life is crazy but honestly I wouldn't have it any other way. It's kind of the only way I know how to function. I get about 3-4 hours of sleep a night. To some of you I'm sure you couldn't function. I feel fine most of the time. It only hurts me when I'm run down for running myself in too many directions during certain weeks. This schedule of my crazy life is maybe the reason why I feel so at peace in New York City. I hear so many people always complaining of how they can't stand the city life and that is just so stressful. When I'm there I feel at peace not completely calming peace but I feel at home. All the hustle and bustle of the city is just great to me and I honestly love it there. I can't wait to live there to see the beauty of the city everyday and to experience all of what life has to offer me there. I just can not wait.
Well I think I posted a long enough blog today for all of you to keep reading forever. LOL. Hope you all have a great day.
Love Always,
Sarah

Hi All!! Well this is my first blog entry here. I decided to come and join the blogging family and keep everyone I know and some of you that don't know me updated on my plans for moving to NYC and fulfilling my dreams of Broadway and acting coming to life. I guess some of you should get to know me first. After all if you are going to read my daily or weekly occurrences on here you might as well get the background of me. So anyway, where to begin? Well to start off my name is Sarah and I hail from a small town located outside of the capital of Pennsylvania. I've been acting ever since I was born, literally. My first stage production was playing baby Jesus at my church's Christmas play. Man I was a great baby Jesus. (LOL j/k) One thing you should get to know about me is that I love to laugh. I'm sure as the weeks ahead and blogs ahead you'll get the LOL's or the Haha's. I'm a big goofball and laugh constantly. If only you all could hear it then it would make much more sense. I'm for the most part outgoing, nice, easy to get along and love living my life. I take each day and try to live it up and make the most of it. For me acting has always been my passion. I feel alive when I'm up on stage. I think about it constanly and memorize each and every line from my favorite productions and songs. I'm constanly singing and dancing. I can't really dance all that great but I can sing and act. I'm pretty strong in those areas so I'm trying really hard to perfect some sweet dance moves. :) I have been away from the stage and acting for almost 2 1/2 years now. Due to some family health problems with my parents and going to school I was unable to really pursue anything during that time. I miss it terribly. I had one of the Ah-ha moments a year ago when I kept thinking why am I doing this crummy job when I know what I want to do. From that moment on I knew that I had to do this. This is what I was meant to do. My life is crazy and there is never a dull moment but I wouldn't have it any other way.
Right now I work at a boring old 9-5 job. It is pretty just another job for the meantime and it helps pay the bills while I tone up on the acting, singing, dancing chops. I plan to move to New York City next year and pursue my dreams of acting. I will be on Broadway someday. It will happen. There is no if it it is when. Until then I'm auditioning like crazy, singing all the time and practicing non-stop for productions in the area and getting ready for the big move next year. This year I plan to do total preparation. I want to be the best at acting, singing and dancing and to perfect that I am working my butt off right now.

Well enough about me. You all will get to see the inside scoop in the weeks to come when I'm endlessly talking about something that relates to myself. LOL. I hope that you all enjoy my journeys as I write about them and help to inspire me when the going gets tough. Can't wait to hear from all of you out there in cyberland. See ya on the flip side. (*Okay that was really lame but I had to say it*)

Love Always, Sarah