Broadway Bound

I was going to write this fun post about cupcakes but that will have to wait. I feel like I need to write to get my feelings out because right now I feel like a big old jumbled up mess.

B's best friend we'll call him M is in a band. And not any band. They are a HUGE band and not huge like they have a lot of members but HUGE like they are so popular. B and M talk almost every other day and have been friends since they were in elementary school. The band has never played in my state before (well they have but it wasn't the "same" band) so B and I made our way over to see them play (2 hours away) on Saturday night. The band is from Miami, FL and is on tour right now so that was pretty cool to see them play live. I've met M before and I talk to him with B sometimes so that was awesome watching him play. After the show we all got something to eat and I got to finally meet the rest of the guys and really get to know them. We talked for hours all about their careers, how they got started, how they write their music, each others backgrounds, etc. It was so uplifting. These guys work so hard for everything and barely get by right now. They are a seriously famous band in Miami and the rest of FL and pretty much the rest of the South. They talk all about how crazy it is down there and then up here in the northeast they are nothing right now. These guys are going to be HUGE next year as they are in talks to tour with Nickelback next summer. Things will change for them and I can testify that they are amazing talented and awesome. I'm so proud of them!

B and I were talking on the way home about them and how awesome it is that they are doing this. B really wants to find a job and to be "more grownup" but right now it's so hard. He wants to do something equally as amazing. To come back home from living far away and showing people things that he has done. I think that is why partially he wants to be in the Navy. (We still haven't heard anything.) He wants to show people with what he is a capable of and right now he just can't seem to get it going. I was thinking about my life too. I absolutely hate my job right now. I desperately want to leave but I don't have a degree. I want to get my marketing degree so I can travel and do promotions and marketing but I need my degree and right now I'm waiting to hear about funding for that. I feel like I'm just on this see-saw and I can't seem to catch a break.

Today was like a breaking point for me. My job absolutely blows! I am harassed by vendors all day long on the phone and now other agencies in my job just yell all the time at you when they don't even know who you are. I hate my job and I need to find a new one. Ideally my job would be doing event planning/marketing as my full time job. This can happen I just need my degree so I can get that job. My job that is in left field that is becoming more difficult is acting/singing. I would love to make that happen but I couldn't quit my full time job and live off of nothing b/c that's what actors get. It's so frustrating.

Today is just one of those days. One of those days that you look at other people's lives around you and think how they hell did that happen? Why can't my life be like that? I need a change to happen soon. I just need to make it happen. My favorite quote is reach for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars. I just need to remember this and aim high. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day full of enlightenment and wishes. I hope so because this bad mood is really making me more mad.

Till next time, Sarah

For the next few days I'm sure that I won't be blogging much.

You see I decided to take on a 3rd job along with my Crab Cake job, and my main job which still isn't paying me. The crab cake job hasn't been giving me any hours since May so I decided that I really need to get some extra money.

I now work for a marketing/promotions company that hires clients to work at their clients events. They contact you whenever there are promotions in your area. So far I have only worked once with them but have loved it.(plus B works with me)

Last week I was contacted that there were openings in my area to work a number of days. So I choose a few days here and there but then had to switch due to unexpected weekend plans. So this weekend I'm signed up to work Saturday/Sunday 7.5 hours both days. Not too bad. B will be working at the events too and since this event is an hour and a half away it will be nice to drive with someone. I figured that after the event we can explore the town and have some fun. The money is fantastic too. B signed up to set up and breakdown along with working the event and i just signed up to be the Team Leader/Manager working the event. We both get extra money for doing this so I'm pretty excited. After this event I have another one to work near the end of the month which will be less hours but still great money.

Anywho, after all is said and done I will be working 11 days straight, then I head up to a cabin with B and his parents for a 3 days weekend. I'm so going to need to rest and relax so let's just pray that I do.

My month of August is filling up so fast that I'm not sure when I'm even going to find the time to do anything else I want to do.

So far my plans for this month:
Aug 1/2: working 3rd job
Aug 7/8/9: Cabin with B
Aug 15: Family Reunion on B's side
Aug 21/22/23/24: Hopefully Beach

Everything should be fun and really relaxing it's just when you put it on paper it looks overwhelming.

So if I don't blog for a few days please forgive me. I hope you understand. Have a wonderful day!

How's your month looking? Are you busy like I am?

My boyfriend who I would like to now refer to as B is looking for a job. He has been laid off of his job for 6 months now. He has been applying and looking for pretty much anything but let's face it there isn't much out there right now.

It has been extremely hard on him. He has been getting more and more depressed every week and seems to be getting angrier each day from his frustration.

Recently he has been looking up things on the military. He met with the Air Force last week and this week he met with the Army. He hated things in the Air Force but he loved what was offered with the Army. Granted he doesn't want to be in the infantry area where you are the front lines but he would like to either be fixing things on a base or something else.

I'm not sure how to feel about all of this. It looks like 90% chance that B is going to enlist. We have talked about it numerous times since he brought up the idea to me. He says that no matter what we will be together that this would ensure a better life for us in the future, he could feel like he is really doing something, and he would be proud of a job that he is doing.

While I want him to be happy doing something he loves or even likes I don't want him going into the military, fighting in another country. I wish that he would choose a job or find one that had normal hours M-F 8-5. All career paths he has been interested in have been "high risk" and haven't been normal hours or days.

I was able to handle him testing for Police Officers jobs but I'm having a really hard time dealing with this. At least with a police officer job he would come home every night and I know he would be alright. I could talk to him on the phone when I wanted to and for the most part see him when I wanted to. I'm not saying that the police officer job would rest me from worrying. Let's face it bad things happen there too.

I'm just really uneasy about the military. He's thinking about doing the Army Reserves which would put him closer to home when he wasn't serving and such but right now all reserves are fighting in Iraq or Afghanistan. My ex-boyfriend was in the military but got hurt and had to leave early, his best friends were serving in Iraq when I met him. When they came home they were completely different than they were before and actually had to go on another tour 8 months after they had come home. I've heard the horror stories from them and from some of B's friends who have served.

I'm just so scared about the unknown. How will I know he's safe? How will I know anything? I won't have the luxury to talk to him whenever I want and I won't get to see him. How will I cope with the drastic change? I'm so unsure, and I'm so scared that I might lose him. I don't' want him to change either. He's the most caring, wonderful man I know and well I'm scared the army is going to break him down and he'll change. Meaning we'll change down the road.

This is a huge decision one that he is going to have to make a some point or another. In a few nights we are going to go over the paperwork and look at it together and I think then he'll decided what he wants to do. I will support him no matter what.

I never imagined myself being an "army girlfriend". I never imagined that life and now that I'm facing the possibility I'm not sure how you deal with it. How do you deal with all the uncertainties?

I guess my post is about the very real nervousness of this whole thing. I wanted to put out what was going on and perhaps if anyone has insight, comments, encouragement for me they can provide it. Right now I need all the help I can get so I can be happy for him with whatever he does and know everything will be alright.

I'm not going to elaborate on this issue seeing as how this might sacrifice my anonymity but the simple fact is why the state can not pass a budget, I am going without pay. Inmates are getting paid but the workers are not. On Friday I will be getting partial pay and will start struggling in order to pay bills, eat, to live a everyday life. Please pray for the affected families larger than just mine. I'm lucky I only have myself but what about the people who have kids, who have babies and need money to put food on the table. Please pray that this budget gets passed soon and that we can all have paychecks so we can live our lives. I know that most of us in this economy are struggling and just surviving until the next paycheck. What happens when we don't' get paid for the work we do? I'm not sure what I'm going to do. I'm just going to keep praying and believing that everything is done for a reason.

All I can end with is pray.

Tomorrow I finally finally have a day off. I haven't had a day off in 3 months and personally I'm super excited about it. I had taken the day off to go to a local amusement park, known to the world as Hershey Park but since some of my friends couldn't make it or whatever the reason I'm going to spend the day getting ready to pack (for the new place more on that to come), clean the apartment some, rest and relax and then get ready to eat some sweet dinner with the boyfriend. I am so excited to sleep in and really just relax!!! Saturday I am working 14 hours at the part time job so tomorrow will be great to just sit and stare if I want.

Well I have to get back to work to finish out the last hour and a half at work before the 3 DAY WEEKEND!!

Hope everyone has a great rest of the day and weekend. More to come lovelies. Just give me some time. I'm pretty back up right now.

Lots of love to all.

Hey Ya'll I'm back. How's everyone's Monday going? Mine is going good for the most part. It is gorgeous outside today and so sunny. I was outside for lunch and let me tell you that I so did not want to come back to work.

Since it is Monday and the weekend was just here let me do my little weekend recap.

On Friday I went for a walk with my friend S after work. We walked all around a local state park and it was so much fun. The weather was just perfect for hiking/walking. After my walk, I went the the boyfreind to eat at a newer resturarunt. Our food was so delicious and oh so yummy! We then decided to hit up some hot spots with his friend and me and we had a good old time just talking and laughing.

Saturday I cleaned for a little and then went shopping for a bit. I picked up a really cute dress that was only $5.00 dollars and got my cousin's soon to be daughter some really cute baby clothes. Oh how I love baby shopping especially for little girls. Little girls dresses, purses, socks, shoes, etc are so adorable. Not to say that little boys aren't but girls are just so darn cute! After shopping I quickly got dressed and went over to the boyfriend's house. We had tickets to see the Sauce Boss. Basically it's a guy who sings and makes gumbo while he is singing. He also gives out gumbo to the homeless when he isn't working which is pretty awesome. It was pretty cool and we had a lot of fun dancing. It was also a plus that I got to wear my new $5.00 dollar dress and got to sip on Strawberry Daiquiris all night long! Oh so yummy!

Sunday I spring cleaned for hours on end and then got ready to go to my cousin's baby shower. She is having a little girl this time (hence why I got little girl's dresses). It was a lot of fun. The entire house was decorated in pink and the food was soooo good. I serioulsy couldn't stop myself from eating. Serioulsy cucumber finger sandwiches are the bomb and so are mini turkey and cheese sandwiches. (Yes I said the bomb. I knoiw that is like so 90's but that's just how I roll). I really needed to stop because that won't be good for my Weight Watchers meeting on Tuesday night. LOL. After the baby shower I got ready to go walking with my walking team from Weight Watchers. We walked for a mile and a half and then after I got home I decided to run for the first time since I hurt my ankle. I ran only about a half of a mile but it was really good for me to do and seemed like a great end to my day. If only the boyfriend could have seen me go, he would have been so proud. The boyfriend left Sunday to go Turkey hunting for a few days with his dad. He'll be back on Wednesday but I'm missing him still. :(

Today I'm back to the daily grind of work. This week I work close to 57 hours. I work close to 40 hours at my full time job and then on Saturday I work 12-16 hours for my part time job. Pray that I make it and don't quit before I even start. I so want to quit. I really don't want to be working this much and especially working that long of hours on Saturday. Plus this Saturday Jon and Kate (Plus 8) will be here locally visiting with folks in the area. (yes they already live extremely close to me but I serioulsy want to meet them) Since I'm working :( I won't be able to see them. BOOOOOO!

And before I leave you all, I want to share a story with you:

This morning I walking to work like I normally do and when I got close to my building I noticed two large "rock star" busses. Since this concert hall is right across the street I figured the band and everything was already inside warming up but then I noticed a guy sitting on the sidewalking texting on his phone. I kept thinking he looked familiar but I didn't make much bother than that. I just thought he was a bus driver or something taking a break after driving for hours. After lunch I was reading the local newspaper online and read that THIRD EYE BLIND is diong the concert tonight. Yeah so I totally saw the one guy from there. Bummer that I didn't get a pic with him or get his autograph. Oh well but I think it's still pretty neat. I'm not a HUGE into their music but I do know some. I don't know the guy's name but I have a picture that I snagged from Google. Below is the guy taht I saw this morning (he's the one at the top with the blonde highlights):

Hope you enjoyed my story of seeing a famous person. LOL. It's rare that you would see rock stars in PA (well I see one every so often, the boyfriend has a friend who is kinda/moving up famous) so I'm a little stoked.

Okay I know that the title of my post sounds kinda sorta gross but I don't mean it to be. Really I don't mean for it to sound gross, so get your heads out of the gutters. :)

I am talking about stupid bosses, co-workers, and jobs. They can all SUCK-IT!! My boyfriend has worked at a sales job for the past 4 months selling Uniforms, Rugs, Towels, ETC. He has made plenty of sales but not a ton because of the way the economy is right now. A lot of people could care less about floor mats and more about how they are going to pay their employees. The boyfriend's company let's call them Greedy Lawyers have all these really stupid rules. He has to go to 30 new businesses each day and each time he makes a sale he doesn't see commission on that sale for like 2-3 months. (He has yet to see commission for anything he has sold) This is bullshit in my opinion and is downright shady. He also has to call his boss each night to report about the day (she rides with him at least 2 times a week,she knows about his day), fax all these sheets to the company headquarters, and research on where he will go the following day. A few weeks ago they cut his pay in half to where no one could survive on that kind of salary. Let's just say that McDonald's employees are making more than him. He isn't getting health care and now he is getting paid squat. The only good thing is they reimburse for mileage and gas. However those take awhile to see too.

The boyfriend hates this job and wants to find a new one but right now it's hard. He found out about a Police Officer position and so he has been studying all this past week because he takes the 1st round of tests on Saturday.

So today boyfriend calls me at 9:30 AM (he gets to work at 7:30 AM) sounding really upset almost to the point of crying to tell me that they fired him or laid him off because his sales numbers weren't' what they were supposed to be for starting out. WHAT THE HECK?? ARE YOU SERIOUS? Boyfriend has made at least 7 sales that were huge for corporations in the past 4 months and he hasn't made enough. You have guys working with him that haven't made any sales in MONTHS and you lay off this guy? WHAT THE F? Also to make it more awesome one sales guy is in jail because get this, he was driving with a suspended license and the reason he was found out is because he had a DUI and another one so he's in jail because he can't make bail. So that guy isn't fired yet he is just on "vacation"! What a bunch of messed up crap.At least the boyfriend has a few positions that he is applying for and has the first round tomorrow for the Police Officer. I just kept trying to remind him that another door will open soon. He's worked really hard studying for this test that I just know he has to Ace it.

Wish him and I luck that he finds a new, better job soon.

Lately I have been super bored at work. And no I don't mean yes I have work to do but I don't want to do it. No I have nothing to do. NOTHING! I'm so bored that I literally have filled up my blog reading to almost the max. And yes I do read each one because I'm that bored. Not that I don't enjoy each and every single one of my blogs but I really shouldn't be consuming my day with blog reading and commenting. I have spent entirely too much time on the Internet that I don't even go on my computer at night time. It's really sad.

My job consist of answering emails from the help email in the morning and answering phone calls throughout the day. Well I'm done with answering emails at about 9:30 and I get in at 8:30 and throughout the day I get maybe 14 calls. Yes some of them are long and drawn out but its incredibly boring when there is nothing to do.

The worst part of this is that my position is getting moved to a different agency where the entire help desk system will be implemented. 13 other people will have the exact same job I have now and the worst part is there will be nothing then for me to do. NOTHING. I'm getting really sick of this crappy job. I wish I could move to another position but they aren't hiring anywhere now and I can't interview for the newly created positions because get this I'm not qualified. I have been doing this job for a year and a half now. I think I'm overly qualified and could definitely be a supervisor but since I'm not management now they won't let me interview. BS I say. Well I guess I'll just have to keep reading those blogs, commenting, posting, researching other possible job opportunities, (such as pastry school, wedding planner, party planner, etc (more on that later)) daydreaming about moving to other states and daydreaming of vacations because I can't afford it with the stupid salary they give me now because I'm not management!

For all those people who are bored like I am here's some fun things to do while you're at work: